Damn i miss my boyfriend. What kind of shit is this really??? At least i'll be off on December first...

I really hate people man. Everyone really really sucks and i dont know why i hate people so much.

The same old relelntless things to do. Day after Day. It'll be like this for a long time too.

I presented my life story and my self evaluation today..at least thats some progress. Andrew said that in a week or two i'll be on second level cause im just fresh like that:)

So that means, if im good and i dont relapse like some very dumb people...That i'll prolly be out within the next 2-3 months. Who knows maybe not even that long...I know i can do this shit nicely.

I miss Deeny. He didnt go to school today for some odd reason and its the only place i see him. He better go tomorrow cause on sunday its my birthday and im not gonna see him all weekend..I wanna do something with him for it but my parents really wont let me. Im still trying.

That sucks though, my sweet 16 and i cant even spend that shit with my monkey. That makes me so sad:( Its friggin horrible talking about plans that you're gonna have like a month before..Like last month we talked about how great our anniversary would be and how awesome my birthday would be cause it would be just me and him madd fucked up together...And now look what happened...we didnt even get to see eachother 99% of the time....I hope they let me see him this weekend. I miss him....................................................................

I dono why that kid is so good to me. Out of nowhere. Im gonna get clean for you..What was that? I was speechless...Coming from Deeny, thats a fucking huge deal man. Its nice to know that someone in this world actually truly loves me the way i love them. I havent even said that to anyone really yet. Not him man. Not if i didnt know i could do it. Thats huge in my mind. Thats fucking devotion. I love that kid so much.

I dont even know what to do. Right now im having such a negative fucking day. Two kids got out of my rehab and im fucking jealous as hell. Im still fucking new? ahhhh. This shits horrible. Whatever. its holding me over for the time being...Cant do homework, cant see people, cant sleep, cant do anything cause my whole fucking day is taken up. I'm prolly gonna die once i can do shit on the weekends, it'll just be torture. I guess just get this shit over with and get out of that fucking place. Get out and stay out. -dingus